First blood feed

I have been asked to open a new thread for this post. I hope this is the right place for it.

Anyway, as I mentioned before, yesterday was to be my first blood feed.
It was something I had played over in my mind for a long time, even
before I awoke to this. It was more of a personal research than a deep
need, of course, as I wanted to record how it would feel in comparison
with the psychic feeding I've been practising.

I was honoured to count on a willing donor, someone healthy and whom
I've known for nearly two years and who knows me and my "peculiarity"
quite well. I prepared for it as I wanted it to be a special occasion -
fasted and meditated the days before, found the right music, created
the right atmosphere, etc. Too much psychodrama? Maybe, but why not
make it special?

Sorry, for some reason only half of my above post was published. Here is the whole thing again. I think it reads better in one.

I have been asked to open a new thread for this post. I hope this is the right place for it.

Anyway, as I mentioned before, yesterday was to be my first blood feed.
It was something I had played over in my mind for a long time, even
before I awoke to this. It was more of a personal research than a deep
need, of course, as I wanted to record how it would feel in comparison
with the psychic feeding I've been practising.

I was honoured to count on a willing donor, someone healthy and whom
I've known for nearly two years and who knows me and my "peculiarity"
quite well. I prepared for it as I wanted it to be a special occasion -
fasted and meditated the days before, found the right music, created
the right atmosphere, etc. Too much psychodrama? Maybe, but why not
make it special?

In order to make things as comfortable as possible for my donor, and to avoid messiness or pain, I used a medical lancet with a lancet-pen (the sort of thing people with diabetes use). I placed it on the area around the central chakra and extracted 3-4 drops.

When I took it in I just closed my eyes, relaxed and waited, nevertheless trying to keep an objective and critical mind - as it was also an experiment I was doing on myself.

Shortly after I started to feel the familiar warm tingling feeling that comes after physic feeding, starting out around the navel and spreading out. Only it was more intense in a way, similar to the waves of warmth that come after popping an ecstasy pill (but without the mental or visual distortion). It is something that could be described as orgasmic, yes, but yet it is not sexual nor does it really feel sexual. It's more than that, if I may say. And difficult to describe as you all can see, lol.

Delusional? maybe. Feeling what I expected to feel? maybe. Time and more self-testing will tell. I cannot but accept the possibility of this. But still I am quite sure that I am now much more comfortable in these shoes than I ever was in the other ones. I am where I want to be, finally.

I hope this was of some help to some of you.

Thank you for sharing and the courage of exposing such an intimate situation. Keep us posted on your further research and thoughts on it.

Also, I don't find that creating the right atmosphere is too much psychodrama. It is a very special situation, and everyone has the right to strive to perfect and make it more special according to its own preferences. So no worries on that field.

Maktub

Hello, Syrianeh.

I see that this experience was very special for you, so I think we must all thank you for the trust. I'm also thrilled with your critic mind about yourself. That's a good way to go.

Another thing I want to say is that everything you did, what you might call psychodrama, was very pro. Even if there was any technical mistake, theoretical, or even spiritual, you did everything according to your beliefs and knowledge. And that's a very professional and mature attitude.

Best regards,
Karnath.

Syrianeh, it was nice to read about your first Blood Feed, also for it being such an intimate experience.

I agree with Maktub and Karnath, that creating an atmosphere that will be remembered, using candles, incenses, music and special locations, is not at all psychodramatic. I would have done the same if I were you, creating an atmosphere, worthy of such an intimate experience.

Aghrab

Hi Syrianeh,

Thank you for sharing your experience. It is great to hear an individual say that they are comfortable in their own shoes, and where they want to be. Your experience sounds very spiritual.

Life, prosperity, and health to you!

Thanks for sharing. If you indulge in future experiences of blood-letting, please tell us more of your feelings and also, quite importantly, the feedback from your donor.

Victor, excuse the late response, but I have been away since this. As you say, the donor's point of view is very important. Every story is different, but regarding mine I can share this:

He is someone I completely trust, and whom I've known for almost two years. It took me a while to explain what I wanted from him and while, but he took it very well. While he does remain rather neutral towards my beliefs about the world and about myself, he is willing to do this for me.

As you know, the procedure was rather "clean" and painless so he was not affected by it. After I fed he was very quiet for a while, then later I enquired how he felt - and he said he was just fine. This has happened one other time since then and it was just the same story. I have observed, though, that it makes him more sensitive or receptive to feeling. I guess I will have to observe further to jump at any clear conclusion.

I hope this was helpful to you. And thank you to all the others who commented on this topic.

S.

Oops, a typo....

Where I said:

It took me a while to explain what I wanted from him and while

I meant to say:

It took me a while to explain what I wanted from him and why


Thanks

It was very interesting to read your experience in first hand.

Thank you.

Jonathan